This isn't a critique, but I hope it helps. A wise friend once told me that guilt is not an emotion, it's a fact. As in, a fact determined by the courts.
He told me that when we feel guilt, what we're actually feeling is shame. Which could probably be applied to most of what you have written here, but personally I have found that if I recognise it as shame, it's much easier to deal with. I'm no therapist but I'd say that nothing you write should make you feel shame, particularly as it's the thing that you do. And being a writer is not a shameful thing either; plenty of great people were writers.
The opposite of shame is pride, and if you can be proud of what you do, you know you're doing your best.
And I still feel shame that many years ago when I went to see your comedy show and sat in the front row, I created a huge distraction by going to the bathroom just before the end. Sorry.
This isn't a critique, but I hope it helps. A wise friend once told me that guilt is not an emotion, it's a fact. As in, a fact determined by the courts.
He told me that when we feel guilt, what we're actually feeling is shame. Which could probably be applied to most of what you have written here, but personally I have found that if I recognise it as shame, it's much easier to deal with. I'm no therapist but I'd say that nothing you write should make you feel shame, particularly as it's the thing that you do. And being a writer is not a shameful thing either; plenty of great people were writers.
The opposite of shame is pride, and if you can be proud of what you do, you know you're doing your best.
And I still feel shame that many years ago when I went to see your comedy show and sat in the front row, I created a huge distraction by going to the bathroom just before the end. Sorry.
Is this title a Rutles reference?
Very well spotted.